Being Pregnant....

In my personal point of view, being pregnant is a tale of two stories. The first having a plot that includes the mother-to-be and the second including the baby and parents-to-be. For those of you who know me, I am a pretty outspoken person who will tell you how I feel if you care to inquire. In recent days, the question comes up on 'how I am doing'; namely, having to do with the pregnancy. Sure, fine, I get it; however, if I decided to open up to you and tell you exactly how I feel (versus the 'I am fine. How are you?' in passing) then don't try to judge me if you do not agree with my honest answer.

You see, more often than not, I let someone 'in'. I tell them how I don't particularly enjoy being pregnant (or, I like to call it the 'incubation period'...and not that I am denying myself any more children just because of this); however, I am TRULY looking forward to becoming the parent - to holding, loving, teaching, admiring my child - my creation. For those you who have been pregnant, you know where I am coming from. Sure, I experience those private moments with my darling Olivia. I will admire my growing belly and trace my fingers around a spot that I watch kicked outward; however, that is MY private experience and NO, it does not last all the time. You see, I am an independent person by nature and experience. I am also, when not pregnant, extremely flexible and always on-the-go (whether it is to exercising to break and incredible sweat, see friends, etc.). Being pregnant has greatly hindered these two major components in my life - that is, now I am quite dependent and at certain points of the day and certain positions, definitely immobile.

The biggest thing that 'irks' me when I mention my distate/discomfort to people, is the frown or look of concern when they do, in fact, catch me in one of these states (which is more often than not). Pregnancy is NOT a spiritual uplifting. I am FULLY aware of how lucky + blessed I am to be bearing a child with healthy circumstances and tests that prove to be healthy as well. I have my PRIVATE moments with myself and my husband; however, it SHOULD NOT be taboo to state how you feel negative or positive. THIS DOES NOT DEFINE what type of parent I will be. I am greatly looking forward to being a parent and believe that in being able to state my emotions allows for a broader spectrum of communication which I can SHARE and TEACH my child. If she is having a bad day - I want to know...don't lie and repress how you are truly feeling. Vent. Rant. Let it out, my darling Olivia...and most of all - be honest.